MTJC: Update 2

Hi, how are you? If you’re new welcome, I hope you’ll consider staying a while and joining the community.

Welcome back my friends! Glad to see you all here!

Please don’t hesitate to reach out to me for prayer or encouragement.

We don’t have to go through this alone. This past week has been emotional and very hard for me, as I’m sure it has been for all of you. We’re in a position where everything has changed, work lives, home lives, and day-to-day in an instant. All while we’re concerned for our own health and the health of those in our communities.

One thing I look forward to, is the ability to connect digitally with my community. Checking in on friends and family via email, telephone calls, text, and live chats. The highlight of the day is being able to speak to someone. Daily treat.

I look forward to the day, we can look back and realize we got through it. Realize we found our strength. We didn’t give up hope to see a brighter side. I pray that even our hearts continue to change.

There are moments where I get sad. Yesterday, was a tough day. I was filled with anxiety and fear. I just couldn’t breathe. I stayed in bed for a long time, before I could get up. I decided to make breakfast, listen to a sermon, and focus on what I was doing. The breakfast was good, the scripture I absorbed. I felt a little better.

Then my great aunt called. I couldn’t focus on helping her. But I needed my own relief. I’m usually the one to keep it bottled inside. I just couldn’t bear it. Thank God for my family. I spoke with my aunt, (Godmother) we talked and prayed. She made me see that what I am feeling is natural. Don’t ignore them, but talk about them.

After we talked, I knew there was one last thing I could do to lift my spirits. Golden Girls is always my cure for the blues. I knew, without a doubt, I would be laughing in no time. It’s ok to not be ok. I can’t have it all together, if I’m tearing at the seam. I allowed myself space to be sad, cry, and curled up into a fetal position. Seeking help doesn’t make mean I’m weak. And it doesn’t mean people won’t approve of me. It means I am allowed to seek help when I can’t hold myself together. This is why being surrounded by a community is important. We all fall sometimes, but a helping hand is available to lift you back up. Lean on your friends and family. The trust fall is real, we need to lean on each other.

God bless everyone.

We have a chance to see today. Enjoy!